Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Don't You Hear Sincerity in my Voice When I Talk?

So, it's Friday, meaning I had my game day eve practice today and tomorrow OU plays Florida (hopefully not like we played Utah last week). I'm really not in the greatest of moods right now so sorry if I sound monotonous or anything. Todays practice didn't go well for me. I kept messing up and forgetting things and I was trying as I always do. But noone can be sure of that but me. Yet, on a lighter note, because it was game day eve, it was the practice where everyone dresses up. This is kinda my favorite practice because of that. The drumline has matching outfits for each part of the section and the trumpets all wear little pink shorts, etc. Guard decided to join in and because our show this week consists of Poker Face - Lady Gaga, Waking Up In Vegas - Katy Perry, and You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift we went with Taylor Swift and all dressed as she did in the video. Good stuff.

Anyway, I had something else to say but I forgot. Great right? Well right now my roommate is gone so Im taking a chill night in my room by myself. Too bad its definitely the wrong day for Alyssa to be lonely. So I finished watching Secret Life and omg Im so in love with that show. But this whole Ricky Amy business gets me to think too much about my life and relationships and what not and I think it upsets me somewhat. Maybe Im jealous? Who knows. But I also got myself some food from Xcetera, the store downstairs, and I even got some chocolate. Because everyone knows I LOVE chocolate and Ive been lacking it lately. Sad.

I've also been indulging in music, and right now Yiruma's River Flows in You, Paramore's The Only Exception, and Eminem's Love the Way You Lie are repetitively flowing through my speakers and flooding my soul with... the truth? First, go listen to those songs if you haven't yet. River Flows in You is always a song I turn on, and I'm thinking of looking into more of Yiruma's music because of this. Also, I think in a way I feel at home listening to piano. Maybe it's because I am in a way? Then, The Only Exception. God this song sucks. Not literally but seriously it hits home. I always put up defenses and pretend I don't care and try to keep boundaries between like and love and I'm scared to cross to the love side, but then someone comes along, or maybe he's already there, and it's like... Crap.

Lastly, Love the Way You Lie. Eminem is a lyrical genius, and he proves it in this song. But also, this song gets to me. Only a few of you probably even know why or how, and I don't know if anybody understands how badly it sucks. Once again, I pretend I don't care... but I do. Ehh. Oh well. New topic.  :D

Oh wait, back to that song. So I really want to have the opportunity to teach and write shows for a highschool colorguard when I get older. Not as a career but more as a hobby. I have so many ideas and I want to create and show people how I see the world... but through a show. Anyway, I WANT to do this song. Probably more than any other song. But for winterguard. And Ive already designed some of it in my head because Im like that. Gah.

Soooo, I have my first Chemistry exam this week and I have Engineering essays due on Monday and etc. etc. Its crazzzy. Especially because I know people who haven't even started school yet and I feel so far in. It will be the end of this semester before I know it. I hope it ends well though.

Right now I miss everyone back in Cali so much, its rediculous. I got Skype, but I only get sad when I have to get off of it.

Well, I'm going to go get in bed and chill out, because Ill probably be up at 5ish tomorrow, so um any news...
I have good grades as far as I know right now.
Im still in the pride.
I need a haircut.
Yea I really dont have any news. Oh well. Maybe Ill add to this if I think of something.
Love everybody!


  1. Oh, those are the snare drummers. Thats what they wear on Fridays

  2. Dang. Melancholy and reflective. That's no fun. Nothing like being lonely to send the heart and head spiraling backwards. It happens to everyone. That's what chocolate and ice cream is for.